It sure has been a while since I’ve done one of these! Throughout the last four years or so, my butt has never touched a potty, even on vacations or going to see my friends or family. And you know what?  I don’t miss it! Nope! Not one bit.   Want to know why?

Hey everyone, I have great news! (Screenshots of new guide, my Discord training server, and even a link to download a sample of the new guide included below!) The Path to Diaper Dependency Version 8 is out! ( Click this link to buy! ) I pushed myself super duper hard to get it done, and even stayed up late working on it almost every single night since late June 2025. 

You know how your dreams can be influenced by external noises? Like, you fall asleep watching tiktok and it keeps looping and playing the same audio, and then that audio affects your dreams? Well, after some of my dreams got influenced by whichever tiktok I fell asleep to, that gave me a wonderful idea! I found a soft and calming piano song, then recorded myself saying affirming lines. Here are some of my favs!   

 I know it’s been a while since I’ve done one of these. Terribly sorry about that! I assure you that I haven’t deviated from the challenge, nor have I touched a potty anywhere at any time. This challenge started on July 26, 2021, which was 3 years, 10 months, and 13 days ago. I’m so close to my 4 year anniversary! Currently, the challenge ends on July 10, 2026, but I don’t think you guys will let me stop.  (Pretty please don’t let me stop; I love this challenge) I had my first messing around my friends at my new place last weekend for my housewarming party. We got chinese takeout and something in the food didn't sit right with my tummy, so I excused myself to the bathroom, squatted down, and did the deed in my diaper as I had no other option. I had the fan on to make some background noise. Afterwards, I cleaned myself up and changed into a fresh diaper that I had stashed under the sink. While the friends I invited over know I need diapers, they don't know about my messing cha...

 I had a very stressful week last week so I decided to have some naughty fun to help take my mind off of life. I ate some pizza (which always makes me messy. My body doesn't like cheese or other dairy products but I can't give it up completely. I treat it like a natural laxative that just completely clears me out.) and had several rum and cokes. As I went to bed late that night, I put in my bluetooth headphones and looped a few different hypnosis files from baby pants and EMG. I restrained myself to the bed using a rope and cuff system that goes underneath my mattress. All the ropes were loose and I still had the ability to roll over and whatnot, but for all intents and purposes, I was fully secured to the bed. (I recommend doing this to your little if you don't have a crib for them just yet. I loved being tied down, even if it was just a little loose.) I woke up the next morning a little hungover, but that wasn't what woke me. My tummy was super duper mad at me for eat...

 I went out of town last week because I needed some time away from home to force a reset. Things haven’t been the best overall lately and I needed a fresh perspective; a change out of the ordinary. I found a decent hotel in the place I wanted to go to, and left the very next day. Staying on top of the messy challenge while traveling was pretty hard. There were many factors I had to take into consideration but I think I handled it pretty well! For starters, I wore white Trests the entire time. Since I didn't know where it would be safe to change my diapers, I erred on the side of caution and wore thicker diapers than I normally would wear in public. Could I have worn a more discreet diaper? Of course, but then I would have had to change more often. That meant I would have to look for a safe space to change in public in a totally unfamiliar area. I figured it would be easier to just wear thicker diapers and risk someone noticing I was in a diaper, but you know what? I found some good...

 Well, I had an interesting night.  Knowing fully well that Mexican food gives me an upset tummy, I still went out for dinner with a few friends I hadn't seen in a while. They came back for the holidays so I'm glad they found time for little 'ol me.  I ordered what I normally order: chicken fajita nachos drenched in queso. I had thought I'd be good until I got home where I could do my messing in private but nooooo, I was wrong. Everyone kept talking and chit chatting once we finished eating and I didn't want to leave. I was having too much fun. I ignored how my tummy was feeling, thinking I'd be able to hold it at least until I got to my car.  I reached a point where my body gave me no choice. I excused myself to the restroom, feeling pretty nervous for what was about to happen. Messing at home is easy, but messing in a public bathroom is scary. Good thing I've practiced changing in public before. The restaurant was so crowded. I was thankful for the loud no...

 Adapting to a life where I'm strictly banned from using the potty for #2 felt daunting in the beginning of this challenge. Never had I imagined it would ever go on for this long. I have a few select individuals to thank for that; you know who you are! <3 The warmth of my pee mixed in with the warmth of my daily messes has grown to become more reassuring, that I was a good girl, rather than of shame and disgust when I started. Diapers are very-well designed to handle such things and even though it took me a while to come around, there are certain things that really helped me enjoy the dark side of messing my diapers. For starters, I conditioned myself to associate messing with pleasure. For the first month or so (and I still do this occasionally when I'm feeling really frisky), while I squatted and prepared myself mentally to do the deed, I would tease myself, playing with my vibrator for several minutes. I would only allow myself release after I messed my diaper, and only a...

 I woke up around 4 AM last night with a very upset tummy. I woke up with my body screaming at me to get out of bed to go to the potty so I acted out of instinct, barely awake, stumbling to the bathroom so I could relieve myself. I plopped my slightly soggy diapered butt down on the toilet seat because I had a feeling that this was going to take a while. Felt rather odd sitting there tbh; I hadn't sat on a toilet seat in a very long time. I started to miss the warmth of my sheets after the first half hour.  I kept myself entertained with my phone while I sat there in my messy diaper on the toilet waiting for my body to do what it needed to do. I felt pretty helpless because my tummy hurt so bad. I have a feeling what caused this; it's just another food to add to the list that I can't eat anymore if I wish to avoid such a negative response. It's crazy how my body has become so intolerant of shitty processed foods. I've lost a decent bit of weight switching to foods t...

 I still find it rather funny how much time this challenge has. I realistically thought I'd be doing this for a couple weeks to a month tops but nooooo, a select few of you deemed it necessary that I mess my diapers for years. I'm not one to back down from a challenge, but... holy shit. The timer reached 5 years total time earlier this year, long enough to enact some sort of change in my level of control. Messing is so much easier and has become something that I just let happen. It's relaxing to let my body push it out on its own. Why bother exerting myself and let it take my attention away from what I'm doing when my diaper will inevitably handle whatever is going on down there? What's a little extra warmth and weight? Speaking of how easy it is to mess, I was out shopping for books last week and felt the urge to poop come out of nowhere. I haven't been able to hold it as long in recent months and I didn't want to drive all the way home; it was going to tak...

 Two years? TWO WHOLE YEARS??? AND ALMOST THREE MORE YEARS TO GO??? I truly cannot believe it's been this long since I started my 24/7 messing in diapers only challenge. I, too this day, have not pooped in a potty since July 26, 2021. At my current end time, I won't be able to use a toilet until April 18, 2026. That's 997 days or 2.73 years away. Pooping outside of my home during this challenge was a bit scary at first because I had no choice but to use my diaper for everything. Not only was it very embarrassing to fill my diaper in that manner in public, it was such a turn on. I remember blushing really hard on my drives home, sitting in a messy diaper, knowing that I was the only one in a several mile radius that was messy and soggy. Part of the excitement is that nobody but me knows just how naughty I was being messing my diaper. I've been working hard to get over changing a messy diaper in public and make it a routine part of my life. It's hard. It's really ...

 Color me surprised. I woke up two nights ago to roll over, just awake enough to get more comfortable before I let sleep take hold of me once more. You know what I'm talking about, right? How you wake up for mere seconds to get cozier before you're asleep again? Well, as soon as I rolled over, I felt the oh-so-familiar feeling of something warm and heavy sliding into my diaper. I thought I was dreaming and tried to fall asleep again but then the smell hit me like a ton of bricks. I sat up in a flash to check but the heat radiating from the seat of my diaper was undeniable proof of what I had done. What was shocking was that I hadn't even felt the urge grow within me. I hadn't felt any sort of movement from my tummy that would signify that I needed to go #2 until it was already coming out. I didn't push. I didn't cough. I didn't do anything that would help push that hot load into my diaper and yet, it happened anyway. Granted, I had a few drinks that night an...

Okay, so today I learned that 1 cup of coffee helps move things along and helps make me do my thang in my diaper. However, adding a glass of cranberry juice throws my tummy into overdrive and totally clears me out in a way that I don’t like. You ever feel like you totally clear yourself out then your body is like, “Go back to the potty right now cuz you’re gonna poo right now!” twenty minutes later? Guess how many diapers I went through because of that? Four. Four diapers because each time I thought I was good. I waited in my third diaper after messing to make sure that I was as empty as I could be, then changed. I’ll give you one guess as to what happened next. Since I have sensitive skin, I used gobs of Desitin rash cream down there so I could practice staying messy for longer and longer periods of time. I want to be able to tolerate being messy for a bit longer than I’m comfortable with because there may be situations in the future that keep me from changing as soon as possible. I’v...

I’m 50/50 on continuing this baby pants hypnosis file that’ll make me mess in my sleep. There’s gotta be some sort of incentive to push me to listen to it every night before bed, and no, don’t tell me I’ll wake up to presents in my diaper. The idea of waking up messy as something I trained myself to do is both tantalizing and frightening because if I change my mind in the future and want to only wake up soggy, there’s no way I’d be able to “fix” myself and get right if it starts happening. If I’m asleep, how can I stop myself from doing something when I’m not in control? The idea of giving up control of another bodily function to my diapers has always been alluring to be sure but to such an extent of surrendering control is scary. Diapers are supposed to make me feel safe, complete, and whole, but when I think of training to mess in my sleep, I feel hesitation, excitement, and uncertainty. Sometimes I feel like this is something I want and sometimes I’d decide against it and want to st...

As part of your diaper training journey, if you work an in person job, you’ll inevitably have to wear diapers to work. Naturally, there are some jobs that will keep you from wearing diapers. If you work any kind of job that saves people’s lives in a first responder type of role, I beg you to wait until you find a job where you don’t have to run around a lot. Being dependent on diapers as a police officer isn’t going to help anyone. This article is for those who work more sedentary type jobs. Select a diaper that is discreet, comfortable, and provides the appropriate level of absorbency for your needs. Look for brands that offer a slim profile and designs that resemble regular underwear to help you feel more at ease at the start. Ease into wearing diapers at work by gradually increasing the duration of time you wear them. The way I recommend is to wear clothes that will adequately hide your diapers. Go to work wearing adaptive underwear; Aerie makes a pair of panties with bra clasps on ...

When considering which adult diapers to rely on, it's important to weigh the pros and cons of both inexpensive and more expensive options. While affordability is a valid consideration, there are several reasons why choosing higher-quality, albeit more expensive, adult diapers may be beneficial. Back when I started training and wearing a lot, I wanted to stretch my dollar as much as I could. I ended up buying the cheapest diapers on the market just because I would get a ton at a time. However, I would end up changing pretty often because I would wet once and feel like it was going to leak. I ended up risking it quite a few times, only for me to end up with a leaking diaper. More expensive adult diapers often offer superior absorbency, which is crucial for managing incontinence effectively. They are designed to handle larger volumes of urine and provide better leakage control, reducing the risk of accidents and potential embarrassment. Higher-quality adult diapers often prioritize co...

Here is a list of supplies that would be helpful for daily living: Choose a sufficient supply of adult diapers and pull-ups to meet your specific needs, considering the frequency of changes, your job, your daily life, and your preferred style and absorbency level. For example, I’ve relied on BetterDry for my daily diaper. I’d use that or a thicker diaper, like the Trest, for night. Please experiment with as many diapers as you can to see what works for you and what doesn’t work for you. Trying out new diapers is what makes this all fun. Use wet wipes to maintain cleanliness and freshness. You could look for wipes that are pH-balanced, hypoallergenic, and free of fragrances or alcohol. I like using the Pampers Sensitive Wipes. Consider having a supply of disposable gloves to maintain hygiene during diaper changes and handling soiled items. This would be for those who want to take extra precautions while changing diapers, especially messy ones. Personally, I’ve never felt the need for gl...

Proper fit is crucial for ensuring the effectiveness, comfort, and leakage prevention of an adult diaper. Here are some general guidelines for achieving a proper fit. Fold the diaper long ways after unfolding it. Keep the front of the diaper folded in on itself as you pull it up between your legs, ensuring that it forms a soft V or U shape in the front. You need to create a deep valley for your genitals and urine. The diaper should look smooth up front; the last thing you want is a diaper camel toe. Diapers need to fit like granny panties to give you the best level of protection, not like bikini panties or thongs. There is no shame in going up a size if it protects you better. The diaper should fit snugly around your waist and/or hips without being overly tight or constrictive. It should have a secure and comfortable fit, allowing for freedom of movement while minimizing the risk of leaks. Ensure that the leg openings of the diaper are properly positioned and snug against your thighs. ...

If you needed diapers and wanted to find and test new clothes to boost your confidence for going out in public, here are some steps you can take. Consider the type of clothing you feel most comfortable in and assess any specific requirements based on your diaper size, style, and how discreet you want your diaper to be under clothing. Look for clothing brands that offer options suitable for your needs, such as looser-fitting styles, high-waisted pants, dresses with forgiving silhouettes, or clothing designed with adaptive features. The clothes you wear when you aren’t diapered may no longer fit with the extra bulk of the diaper, so going shopping while diapered will help the most. Before purchasing clothing, read reviews from other individuals who may have similar needs or experiences. This can help you gauge the suitability of the clothing for accommodating diapers and provide insights into comfort and discreetness. See if there are any thrift shops nearby that you could shop at. At th...

If you're struggling with incontinence and finding it challenging to trust your diaper, here are some steps you can take to build confidence and develop trust in your diaper: Research and choose the right diaper for your body shape and your needs. Take the time to research and select a diaper that suits your specific needs in terms of absorbency, fit, comfort, and discretion. Look for products with positive reviews and features that align with your requirements. Buy diapers for specific situations, such as going out in public, work, sleeping at home, and more. Begin by wearing your diaper in a safe and comfortable environment, such as at home, where you can gradually get accustomed to the feeling and experience of wearing and wetting it without fear of judgment or embarrassment. Once you’ve found out what each diaper can and cannot take, engage in various activities while wearing it to test its effectiveness and your comfort level. This can include walking, sitting, lying down, and...

Reconciling bedwetting with yourself can be challenging, but here are a few suggestions to help you adapt to your new normal as a bedwetter. Identify as a bedwetter at the start of your training. That means you would have to wear diapers to bed every single night. If you spent a lot of time training today/last week/last month, surely you wouldn’t feel too confident about your level of control at night. Bedwetting is more common than you might think, affecting people of all ages. Recognize that it is a physiological issue and not a reflection of personal failure or inadequacy. Remember, bedwetting is good for you and will help make you become dependent on diapers faster. Accepting the need for adult diapers or other protective measures can provide reassurance and help manage bedwetting effectively. Modern adult diapers and protective bedding options are designed to be discreet, comfortable, and highly absorbent, ensuring you can sleep comfortably and minimize any potential discomfort or...

Accepting the need for diapers can be a significant step towards self-care and embracing a more comfortable and manageable lifestyle. In order for one to find their new normal, one must accept diapers as their new underwear. Once one gets used to their new normal of wearing diapers, they’d be able to go about their daily activities with confidence, knowing that they have a reliable solution in place to take care of them. By accepting their new need for diapers, individuals can maintain their dignity and self confidence to continue engaging in various activities without constant worry or interruptions caused by bladder spasms or dribbles. Wearing diapers can simplify daily routines as it eliminates the need for frequent bathroom visits or the risk of accidents. This can be particularly beneficial during long outings, travel, or situations where accessing a restroom might be challenging. Be honest with yourself: how much time do you spend on your phone in the bathroom? Too much, right? D...

Here are some preventive measures you can take to avoid getting diaper rash. Keep the area clean and dry as much as you can. Wearing high quality diapers will help keep your skin feeling dry. Gently clean your diaper area with baby or adult wipes, then pat the skin dry rather than rubbing. If you’re still new to wearing diapers or wearing diapers 24/7, you can try using barrier creams or ointments. Apply a thin layer of a protective barrier cream or ointment down in your diaper area, such as zinc oxide or petroleum jelly, to create a barrier between the skin and moisture. Do be careful; a little goes a long way. The scent of those kinds of products could also give you away in public so please use these products conservatively. Ensure that the diaper fits properly and is not too tight or too loose. Opt for breathable and absorbent materials to minimize moisture build-up like cotton or other breathable clothes, especially during the summer months. Wash your hands before and after changin...

High quality adult diapers are typically equipped with advanced odor control features, such as absorbent cores with odor-neutralizing properties. These features help to minimize or eliminate unpleasant odors, allowing individuals to feel more comfortable and confident in social settings. I’ve found that plastic-backed diapers do this a lot better than cloth-backed diapers. There was one situation where I had worn a cloth-backed diaper somewhere in public many years ago. I remember how easily I smelled the scent of pee; if I could smell it, that meant others could smell it far easier than I could because I was already used to the smell. High quality products provide a high level of protection against leaks and accidents. They help maintain cleanliness and hygiene by containing and trapping bodily fluids, reducing the risk of skin irritation, infections, and associated complications. This is all managed by a dry top layer, where the padding that sits against your skin would feel dry, not...