You know how your dreams can be influenced by external noises? Like, you fall asleep watching tiktok and it keeps looping and playing the same audio, and then that audio affects your dreams? Well, after some of my dreams got influenced by whichever tiktok I fell asleep to, that gave me a wonderful idea!
I found a soft and calming piano song, then recorded myself saying affirming lines. Here are some of my favs!
Be a good girl and push…
Don’t worry about messing your diaper; it’s perfectly natural…
Your diapers are meant for messing…
You love messing your diapers…
It feels GOOD messing your diapers…
When you feel that lovely urge, stop thinking and let your mind go blank… That’s it… No thoughts… Be a good girl and let it all out… That’s it… Keep pushing, aaaand done… Good girl…
Enjoy bliss as you fill your diaper…
Good girls squat and push…
and other similar things. Then I lowered my voice’s audio levels to just be barely heard beneath the music. Kinda like a makeshift subliminal hypnosis track. I played that track on my speaker when I cleaned, read books, and whenever I was just relaxing at home. All the while, my subconscious was listening to my words of affirmation. I considered it to be a little positive reinforcement, and… well, it worked, maybe a little too well.
After doing that for a weekish, I started playing that same file as I slept.
And something super exciting happened last night!
Last night, I ate pizza for dinner and had a cheesy omelet for lunch, so with me being kinda sorta lactose intolerant, I was set up. I drank a few mixed drinks that evening, stayed up as long as I could, changed into my comfiest diaper, put a pair of plastic panties on top (I do this every time I have any alcohol), then got all snuggled up in bed.
Well, by the time I woke up, I felt that familiar urge down there, but this time my tummy was hurting a little. I needed to go, like immediately. As I tried to sit up to get out of bed, my tummy couldn’t take it anymore and forced a huge mess into my soggy diaper. I was pretty groggy still and barely awake, but I realized that I’d just messed without pushing.
The relief I felt was the best. The pain and the pressure disappeared in moments. I just flopped back down and enjoyed what was happening to me. It felt odd not pushing, but in a way, it felt nice. Like, I had no control over it (which was scary), but my diaper took it all without skipping a beat (and kept me feeling safe and comforted). Since I knew my diaper would keep me safe, I surrendered to the moment and didn’t try to stop or control it in any way.
Just like a good girl would.
With the pressure and pain gone, all I felt was complete and utter relief. My diaper was hot, heavy, and filled to the brim. Part of me wanted to stay in it and play with Mr. Vibrator as a reward, but I knew adult me would pay the price later because I’ve been dealing with a rash down there. So I slid out of bed, checked to make sure I didn’t leak anywhere, then showered and went right back to bed in a fresh diaper.
On a side note, I’ve noticed some interesting side effects from doing so much hypnosis. This is super embarrassing to mention, but the biggest side effect is I feel this urge to giggle when I’m messing. That simple act of squatting down triggers something in me and makes me feel joyful, giddy, and happy. I can’t remember exactly which file did that, but I suspect it was one of the more AB-focused ones. It’s not exactly a bad thing, but I don’t want to start giggling in public and draw attention to myself if my stomach throws a bitch fit and makes a mess down there.
After messing my diapers for so long, I don’t really remember why I used to be so hesitant about messing. Sure, it’s shitty to clean up, but if I mess after breakfast and coffee, I’m fine because I always shower after breakfast. I no longer waste time sitting on the potty doom scrolling on my phone. I do my business in a minute or less, then keep doing whatever I’m in the middle of. If you think about it from a practical sense, I save so much time doing everything in my diapers.
If you'd like to send me birthday gifts and add more time onto my 24/7 messy diaper challenge, please consider sending me a gift from my wishlist so I can continue creating ABDL content. My birthday is in two days, and there are some really cute outfits I’d love to wear!
I have a somewhat private balcony, but it’s made out of 2x4s, meaning my downstairs neighbor can look up and see my diaper. I really want to sunbathe again (even put a couple cute bikinis on my wishlist!) but I’m terrified of my neighbor looking up and see me wearing the crinkliest of diapers. I have an outdoor rug on my wishlist; it would be such a blessing to get that!
Help keep me diapered and messing? WISHLIST
This challenge started on July 26, 2021, which was 3 years, 11 months, and 7 days ago. I’m so close to my 4 year anniversary! Currently, the challenge ends on July 10, 2026, which is 1 year and 7 days away.
Anything equivalent to the cost of one bag of diapers (~$40) adds one week onto the timer, and goes up proportionally to the chart below. Right now, since my birthday (July 5) is two days away, everything gets a 1.5x time multiplier! Below are the normal time rewards, so just multiply those times by 1.5.
1 bag of diapers = 1 week onto the timer
1 case of diapers (4 bags) = 5 weeks onto the timer
2 cases of diapers (8 bags) = 12 weeks onto the timer
3 cases of diapers (12 bags) = 18 weeks onto the timer.
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