Messy Diaper Challenge Update: December (12/05/2023)

 Adapting to a life where I'm strictly banned from using the potty for #2 felt daunting in the beginning of this challenge. Never had I imagined it would ever go on for this long. I have a few select individuals to thank for that; you know who you are! <3

The warmth of my pee mixed in with the warmth of my daily messes has grown to become more reassuring, that I was a good girl, rather than of shame and disgust when I started. Diapers are very-well designed to handle such things and even though it took me a while to come around, there are certain things that really helped me enjoy the dark side of messing my diapers.

For starters, I conditioned myself to associate messing with pleasure. For the first month or so (and I still do this occasionally when I'm feeling really frisky), while I squatted and prepared myself mentally to do the deed, I would tease myself, playing with my vibrator for several minutes. I would only allow myself release after I messed my diaper, and only after I had pushed everything into my diaper. I would then try to spend a few minutes in the messy diaper to get used to the heat, the weight, and the sheer pleasure of doing something so naughty. 
 
Secondly, I would then spend some time doing a little aftercare. I would take a shower (I usually get my messing done in my bedwetting diaper to keep costs low and make my little diaper stash last longer). I would thoroughly scrub myself, cleaning every inch of me that was... ahem, dirty. I use special scented lotions, shampoos, and shower gels that remind me of a job well done. I remember reading something about scent association online a while ago so that's what I've been doing, only using my special products after I've fully messed my diaper.

Thirdly, I would tell myself how proud I was for doing such a thing. I had to associate good feelings, like a sense of accomplishment, with messing my diapers if I was to make this challenge work. This, combined with associating pleasure with messing, has really helped cement the fact that messing my diaper is right, justified, and a perfectly normal thing for someone who is dependent on diapers to do.

Fourthly, writing about this on a public forum helps a lot of people who wish to experiment and join the messy diapers club. I also receive a lot of praise (I tooootally don't have a praise kink) Pssst! I actually do! I love getting praise for this because it helps remind me that I'm doing something good. I've been helping others for years and I've surely helped improve myself over these years throughout this challenge of mine.

If you think I've been a good girl for messing in my diapers for the last two years, perhaps consider sending me a gift? https://throne.com/dtashley