Messy Diaper Challenge Update: 20 Months

I’m 50/50 on continuing this baby pants hypnosis file that’ll make me mess in my sleep. There’s gotta be some sort of incentive to push me to listen to it every night before bed, and no, don’t tell me I’ll wake up to presents in my diaper. The idea of waking up messy as something I trained myself to do is both tantalizing and frightening because if I change my mind in the future and want to only wake up soggy, there’s no way I’d be able to “fix” myself and get right if it starts happening.

If I’m asleep, how can I stop myself from doing something when I’m not in control? The idea of giving up control of another bodily function to my diapers has always been alluring to be sure but to such an extent of surrendering control is scary. Diapers are supposed to make me feel safe, complete, and whole, but when I think of training to mess in my sleep, I feel hesitation, excitement, and uncertainty. Sometimes I feel like this is something I want and sometimes I’d decide against it and want to stay safe in my comfort zone.

At the time of me writing this, my 24/7 messing challenge ends on January 24, 2026. That means I have 1026 days or 34.2 months or 2.81 years left to go; isn’t that insane? I started doing this on July 2021 meaning that I’m already almost at my 2 year anniversary.

I’ve been cutting out foods that might upset my stomach. An upset stomach for me usually leads to multiple small messes spread out over a few hours; it’s crippling and keeps me locked at home. I’ve cut out foods with dairy and olive oil because that seems to be the culprit; sometimes alcohol can upset my stomach if I don’t drink enough water with it. If I’m stuck at home making multiple small messes, I have two options that I’m still experimenting with. Do I stay messy and wait for my body to make another mess in 30 mins to an hour or do I go ahead and change with every fresh messing?