To give up control over something so intimate... To give up control of your bladder to your diaper is an ultimate sign of submission to oneself. Even without a partner, I feel whole because of my diapers. To become so vulnerable to the point where I have no choice but to completely trust my diapers to keep me safe makes me feel content and happy. No longer do I fear using public restrooms. No longer do I feel anxious about people peeking in through the cracks of the stalls. No longer do I need to worry about whether the person who used the potty before me was sanitary with it.
To surrender complete control when I am fast asleep is a blessing. To surrender worrying about waking up twice or more every night for years on end to go pee. To surrender all thoughts about lack of sleep, bedwetting without being diapered, and waking up without feeling the security of my soggy diaper every single morning… to live a life without diapers is to lose a part of oneself.
All of those things ring true when I tape on a fresh diaper as I have done for the last several years. Each and every diaper I use gives me deep comfort, both mentally and physically. It’s an odd yet exhilarating feeling of giving up control over such an intimate part of oneself. My diapers keep me safe. My hypnotic training has taught me to love my diapers, to love and accept myself for wanting to wear diapers, and to love giving up my control. I’ve always had a small bladder. It was either go to the bathroom much too frequently or go back to wearing diapers and live a normal life. Diapers just make sense.
Nowadays, I start my day in the best way: soggy, warm and cozy, and best of all: an empty bladder. I no longer have to get out of bed to go pee; my body has already taken care of that. With enough practice, you too can become a bedwetter again and experience the joys of waking up soggy.
1: Throw away all of your underwear (but keep your bras if you’re a lady!). This leaves you nothing but diapers to wear as underwear, and as we all know, wearing nothing down there can lead to some irritation. Not good for princess parts! Throwing away all of your undies ensures that you’ll have to wear diapers, and nothing but diapers. If you want to truly commit to this, then do that, or if you’re on the fence about it and want to try it out, stash all of your undies in a backpack or something that you can lock or put a lock on, then give that key to your bestie and have them not give it back until a week, two weeks, a month, or however long you feel like! 1a. Buy a large supply of diapers. I chose to go with the Abena M4 for starters, and have kept with it all the way through. For when you start dribbling (see below!), you can switch to a thinner diaper, like the cloth backed Abena M2. For lighter days, I’ve found that tena makes some decent diapers, same with Tranquility/Select...
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