Since it's been ten whole weeks of me doing this challenge, I feel that today is a special day! I hosted an AMA where I answered my follower's questions below.
How has messing your diapers impacted your life in ways that you didn’t anticipate?
It’s made my home a little bit stinkier for sure! I’ve been using more candles to cover up the scent that should only be in a bathroom, but now I’m messing basically anywhere at home. Another thing I didn’t anticipate would be just how much water I have to drink to ensure my poops remain uniform and normal.
Learning to mess on a schedule ensures that I won’t have any accidents unless I eat bad food so I’ve been doing my best to eat better. Because of that, I’ve been losing a little weight here and there, doing wonders for my general mood and overall happiness. I haven’t really noticed any other distinct changes or impacts because I’ve been bladder dependent on diapers for years now.
How do you handle the smells of a messy diaper?
Since I mainly mess at home, I don’t mind the smell. I take out the trash every morning after messing and because I don’t let it sit around my place, I don’t have to worry about any smells. I do like to keep some candles lit in case I have an unexpected guest show up out of the blue. A little birdy told me that activated charcoal pills helps to neutralize the smell of poop, so I’ll be looking into that more and see if it’s something that would help me. I’m a bit hesitant to start taking supplements and other pills, though.
What’s your bowel control on scale of 1 to 10?
I’d say it’s a solid 8 out of 10. Those times when I couldn’t really control it made me realize that I’m no longer fully in control, probably because my body knows that diapers = safety. Since I’m in them all the time, maybe it’s starting to get used to a pattern. I’m not actively training to lose total and complete control over my bowels; this challenge is solely based out of messing 24/7 and to not use the potty for anything. However, I have noticed my control start to weaken a little bit, so who knows? We’ll just have to wait and see! =D
What about messy accidents in public or in your car?
I do my best to avoid messing my diaper in public, especially around people. If I absolutely have to, then I’d use my car as a last resort safe space. I’m still really shy about changing in my car (even though I’ve done it before loads of times). If I do have an accident or use my diaper intentionally while in the car, I go right home because I’d be terrified of changing in my car (the windows aren’t tinted and honestly need to be at this point) and I can’t exactly go to a public restroom and change there. It'd be hard to clean myself and by the time I’d get into the stall, the mush on my tush would have spread all around, increasing the chances of it leaking out.
How long do you stay in your messy diaper now?
I don’t really like staying in a messy diaper because of what it can do to your skin. Poop is loaded with bacteria and germs, so letting that stay in constant contact with your skin just isn’t a good idea. This challenge wasn’t born out of a fetish, but out of a desire to see what doing this long term would be like and so far, it hasn’t been as bad as I thought it’d be. Since the last update, I’ve been using my new vibrator (broke the motor in the head on the last one lol) to help me associate pleasure with messing my diapers and it’s worked a little too well tbh.
Since I don’t like staying in a soggy diaper from the night before, I’ll often change into a fresh, lower capacity diaper for breakfast and my morning messing session. After I finish breakfast, it doesn’t take much time for my bowels to tell me that it’s time to do something special and slightly smelly in my diaper. I’m on this routine of messing that actually fits perfectly in my schedule, letting me go about my day as if I wasn’t shitting my diapers on the reg haha.
When I get the feeling that it’s coming, I like settling down on my legs, letting my diapered butt plop against the floor. My diaper would typically be wet at this time, so without going into every little excruciating detail, I get myself in the mood by pushing the vibrator against the front of my diaper, slowly but surely pushing it further and further down until it’s resting on my other hole (the one that y’all like to hear about so much :P). Pushing the vibrator against that hole makes it easier to let that hole open up, and once my body feels those rhythmic sensations, it knows that it’s time to do the deed and with a tiny bit of coaxing, the inside of my pure, white, and slightly soggy diaper gets turned into a brown, stinky mess in no time at all.
What positions do you like to mess in?
While my fav position has been squatted down or on my hands and knees, I’ve been experimenting with messing standing up. Sure, the mess is more spread out and settles more towards the front of my diaper than I’m comfortable with, but once I’m done soiling my once pure diaper, all I have to do is push the diaper down like I’m taking my shorts off. I try to push the back of the diaper inside my crack as I pull it down to try and remove as much of the mess as I can. I love using the Pampers Sensitive wipes mainly because of how soft they feel. I’ve tried budget brand wipes and they felt almost abrasive for some reason. I won’t use something that’s not soft down there for obvious reasons.
What have I done to make it easier?
I’ve been eating better which makes my poops more uniform and predictable. Eating bad food and junk food means irregular poops, making it harder to clean. I have to also drink more water and eat less salty foods to stay hydrated and to keep my system purring. This in turn makes me use more diapers because I have to ensure that I never get dehydrated. Dehydration leads to lower quality poops which makes it harder to clean.
How much easier is it to mess than compared to the beginning?
It's definitely gotten easier! It's been more of me overcoming a mental block and getting used to doing the deed every morning than a physical barrier. I figured if I can get used to wearing soggy diapers all the time, that I can get used to wearing messy diapers every morning, too, even if it's just for a short period of time. It's really all about having and nurturing a proper mindset. Once you know that you're going to have to make your diaper all messy, you can either fight it or accept it and find ways to make it easier; that's what I did and what I'm still doing.
What do you think about all that time left on the timer?
Anyone want to make it a full year of messing my diapers for me? Haha, I’m just kidding… (okay maybe not but still lol) As of today, October 3, 2021, I’m going to be messing my diapers until May 7, 2022. I started this challenge near the end of July (I think it was July 25th, but Tumblr doesn’t keep track of timestamps), so if enough time for three months was to be added on, I’d be doing this challenge for a full year. It’s almost frightening to think I’ll be doing something so dirty for so long, but it’s also exciting at the same time. I can’t imagine what my bowel control would be like by then. Do you think I’d just squat down and push at the smallest signal that I might have something in my poop chute? Or do you think my body wouldn’t give me any signals until it was too late to rush to the potty? I think it’d be interesting to find out, especially since I don’t really have a choice but to stay diapered all the time.
Are some diapers better for messing or are the ones that are the best for wetting & hold the most liquid still preferable for messing?
I’ve been using the InControl Essentials and the Rearz Pink Pirates to do my morning messes in. I love the soft, European plastic of the InControls and I know the pink pirates have good enough leak guards to hold it all in. I like messing in Betterdrys as well but I like saving those for bedwetting or for when I go out in public because I have absolute trust with those. So long as a diaper has tall leak guards, then I'd feel comfortable messing in it. It's not like I'm staying in it for a long time, either, so I don't have to worry about that. However, if I do have to stay in a messy diaper for a while, you better believe that I'm wearing one with tall leak guards.
Do you have anything else to say?
Once I accepted that this challenge was here to stay, I had to figure out ways to make it fun and keep it exciting which is where the vibrator came into play. It’s been a huge help in keeping me motivated because I’ve been doing my hardest to only use it when I’m messing myself. Sure, using my vibrator when I’m in a clean diaper is fine and all, but only using it when I’m messy or in the middle of messing myself helps establish the link between pleasure and pooping myself. Cumming in the middle of pooping is really hard to time right, but it feels absolutely downright naughty when you get it right.
I talked about how certain poses when done in public would make me feel uncertain about my control back there, especially the one where I squat down, in my last update. Just to be safe, I’ve been trying to clench down even just a little bit (trying to clench is super hard, too) because when I squat down or even get in a similar position, my body just knows what to do: let my bowels relax for pooping. Before I started this challenge, I used to be so hesitant and nervous when I felt my stomach/bowels say that I had to go poop when I was in public, even with a diaper on, but now that I'm getting used to it all, I know that I’m totally 100% protected from anything my body wants to push out. That’s made my life a bit easier, all things considered.
Once again, I’m sincerely grateful for the diapers and toys that have been used to add more time onto this timer! The diapers sent to me have really helped with the increased cost of using my diapers for #2.
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