Messy Diaper Challenge Update: One Week

Hey y’all! Got a fun update for ya! It’s been nearly a full week of me messing my diapers. It’s been a bit of a struggle to be sure, but one that I’ve accepted. I’m working to see if it’s something that I can transition to full time messing instead of only once in a blue moon and I’m still kinda sorta on the fence about it. I rarely mess my diapers, except on rare occasions when others challenged me.

I figured out a good way to keep the cleaning ickiness down by only messing my diaper squatting down. It just feels… natural, I guess? It’s a lot easier for me to go poo poo in this position and it’s easy to clean up, too. I figured out that untaping right after messing and using the back of the diaper to wipe away all the messy stuffs really helps minimizing the amount of time needed to clean myself. There’s no point in letting it get all squished against my butt when I stand back up, after all.

I’ve been messing myself in this position nearly all of this past week and it’s been working out well so far! Now my body is getting used to messing in this position, so whenever I squat down, even to pick something up, I can feel my bowels relax ever so slightly. Since the muscles connecting the bladder and the anus are connected (try clenching down on your bladder; you’ll feel your anus clench too!), I know my bowel control has atrophied a little bit. I can feel when I need to go #2 but sometimes I have only a minute or two to get to the potty, even less when I’m drinking coffee.

When I went out for some dinner a couple nights ago, I think the food was a bit under cooked or something because it gave me a tummy ache. The waiter took forever to even bring me the check in the first place and they weren’t even that busy! All the while it feels like my stomach is twisting itself into knots. Sure, I could have gone into the restaurant’s bathroom, but I hate using them, so it really wasn’t an option for me because I dedicated myself to this challenge no matter what.

When I finally got the check and paid for it, I felt like I was gonna explode. My place was about 15 to 20 minutes from the restaurant and I knew for sure that there was no way that I was going to make it back in time to mess myself in the privacy of my home. I felt a huge cramp hit me halfway back to my car, making me stop in the middle of the parking lot. There wasn’t anyone around so as soon as I got back to my car, I squatted down and did what had to be done. There was just no way that I would have ever been able to drive safely all the way home in that much pain.

As soon as I let it all out, I knew my ordeal wasn’t over. While my tummy felt a lot better, I did not want to change my messy diaper in my car. As much as I advise others on how to handle any situation in diaper training, including shitty ones like this, I was unprepared for this specific situation. I didn’t have any of my big disposable underpads in my trunk; they’d been used a while ago and I had kept pushing off a restock of my car’s diaper supplies because I was lazy. I was a fool and it left me in a shitty situation, pun intended.

I hope I don’t get too many more upset tummies in public like that because that wasn’t too fun to deal with, but in a way, I’m glad that I went through this so I know how to prepare for the next shitty situation. It also allowed me to share my experience with all of you so that you might be able to avoid what I had to go through. Even though that wasn’t that fun, I’m still enjoying my time messing full time.